I have been asked by many of my co-workers "Are you coming back?" My answer is always yes but not sure if I would stay. My reasoning for that answer is this, I cannot afford child care. Then I cannot afford to not work cause of bills and my car. So I am stuck between a rock and a hard place so they say.
What am I to do, I can go onto welfare which I hate because I am able to work. But then again I don't really like leaving my child with strangers. So what am I to do....
If I go back to my part time job cause they don't have full time positions anymore. I will have to try and find another job. Which I have two but the one doesn't guarantee me any hours. So I cannot count on that job.
Yes many of you are probably saying "don't you have a fiancee", yes I do. But he is a student at the moment, so he isn't allowed to work more than 12 hours a week. That does not pay his bills, let alone help me with mine. He tries but its not enough.
I have applied for housing and they told me the wait list is over 6 months for a 3 bedroom. I am getting very frustrated with the waiting. It has been over 6 months, I am still waiting.
So now its crunch time to try and find affordable daycare, plus a third job. Which means I will never get to see my family. I know we must do what we have to, to provide for our families. But it still sucks ass.
With my daughter I was single and had to go on welfare. I didn't have to work for 5 years cause she was home full time. But that still didn't leave me with much money. Plus I didn't have a car back then.
I swear I need to find me a "SUGAR mama/papa" lol or win the damn lottery.
Rant over for the day.
Thanks and much love
M.P.
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